So your fear is that there's going to be a zombie apocalypse?

Not sure I follow at all. What replaces you when you're dead???

Do you think that you are the same person that you were yesterday?

Do you think that you are the same person that you were a year ago?

Ten years?

What do you think makes you you? What do you think makes you anything?

I rarely post on here anymore, but Borderline Personality disorder is summed up as... someone who experiences these emotions all at once: "I love you. I hate you. I want you to leave. I don't want you to leave." Because it is a personality disorder, it is something that is taught to you by your parents mainly because you grew up in an unstable environment.

But do you have good reason to believe so, especially in light of the fact that you (like everyone else in the world) have new thoughts and new beliefs periodically, regardless of what you want?



Why do you verbalize it as an external demon? The reality is that we are emergent properties of the elements of this world and that changes in the world can result in changes in us. You're not describing someone comitting a metaphysical crime against you, you're describing things happening.

You know what I would find horrifying? Being a subhuman automaton that never changes. Which, as mentioned above, you could not achieve even if you wanted to. You could become a Buddhist monk and only ever meditate and sweep floors for the rest of your life, and you would not achieve that.

We are subject to conditions. There is not a choice that you or anyone else can make that will change that. But we can make choices that can change how we suffer, and what else we do besides suffer. I would rather suffer how I wish, and do as much else as I can besides suffering. Thusly, change is absolutely necessary, not only for life, but to approach irreplaceability.

Your course - to change as little as possible - is the opposite. By reducing yourself merely to certain passions, relationships and convictions, you are making yourself more replaceable.

Please avoid portraying what I have said as faithlessness or disregard or lack of convictions in your response.

There are some cases where I thought I was changing for the better and then it's like wait a minute maybe this isn't good or good for me and then it's okay better stop (it doesn't stop). One thing that is fairly clear to me though, the me from like 8 years ago or so would probably absolutely hate the me of today. And I'm not entirely sure he'd be wrong to do so. But then again, I'd also have plenty of valid reasons to hate him.

One might think after a while it would be better to work your shit out from within and learn to be fine with being "replaceable", therefore no matter how you change or don't change you won't be too phased or negatively influenced by your turbulent/potentially turbulent surroundings. Yet I have to wonder how many people manage to do that. Reality seems to gravitate people towards reliance on external forces.

Too much change and too much stubborn reluctance can be bad depending on the circumstances. But managing that adequately, well probably no one has the definite answer for that especially for a the vastly unique set of people with rather unique circumstances and sets of problems. Thus you kind of end up having to figure your own shit out, see if other people can help you figure it out and if you can't well sucks to be you. Such is life.

Depends on what you mean by "care". I am willing to carry on a conversation by responding to things that you say. I'm not going to change my mind, though. I guess you could say that I have a firm conviction that I'm not willing to just throw away and move on from.

I also kind of share the wondering why you respond to his threads so much in particular that tnu expressed to me elsewhere though. Is there a reason?

tnu serves as a perfect diametric opposite in this dialogue, so he's a useful catalyst for my own ideas.