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Well I officially stopped chemo today since I want to prepare for my fate and just die of natural causes
Posted: Posted July 17th by Weid man
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I talked to my doctor today and I cannot tolerate my suffering anymore. I’ve been through so much pain it’s hard to just get up and walk a lot of the time. I’m not planing on committing suicide since that is a sin. Tomorrow I will consult with my psychiatrist I will likely increase pain meds so much. The doctor said that surgery is no longer an option for me and I just literally want to fucking die. Hopefully I will die in my sleep and hope heaven is real and they I can be saved even though I don’t deserve to especially since I’ve been cranky with my nurses lately caused by the stresses of my own health's I problems, i’m on the last toe for palliative care so I better watch out. I know I have hurt many people here and I am sorry for doing that. I know that by stopping the chemo it will create more pain from tumors growing over my body and likely cause some form of paralysis but hopefully I can be sent to hospice before the worst even happens and be put under (meaning to death).

As for my message for you all I thank the entire gametalk community helping me progress the last 16 years of my life. I wouldn’t have made it this far if it weren’t for finding this video game social networking community where I could easily make friends with since we all share a common interest (gaming). I hope to see you when your time comes to go too.

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You don't need to be sorry about anything, weid. If anything, I need to apologize for the times that I've been a hardass to you. You have gone through more than most people ever will. The fact that you have held out for years and have continued to entertain and encourage the rest of us is incredible. You are an icon.

Posted July 17th by Cruinn-Annuin
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Love you weidman

Posted July 17th by S.o.h.
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Thank you both very much. While I pass away I’ll just ask my parents to donate money to fox forever who’s only two hours away from me and my parents basically have the entire Republican Party supporting them (they love trump).

Posted July 17th by Weid man
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I hope they play this song at my funeral and hope I can hear this song again in heaven.
https://youtu.be/P5ZJui3aPoQ

Posted July 17th by Weid man
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Weid, I'm sorry I never could come to see you. i'm really sorry about that, I love you and I hope you can watch over me from wherever you go, cause I sure as hell need it.

From Brady Myers.

Posted July 17th by Yellow Jr.
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Very sorry Garrett. I know it's all been extremely hard on you. Hard to believe that it's been almost 16 years since we were around GT. If I knew the extent of your problem back then I would've come around earlier.

We should have another Garrettopia before you're unable to live at home anymore (which I hope is not for a while). Even if not everyone can make it, I'll be there. Maybe you could play as The Hero since he's coming out rather soon.

I’ll just ask my parents to donate money to fox forever who’s only two hours away from me

That's one of the nicest gestures I've ever been given, but I don't think I could honestly accept that. Your parents should keep fighting against NF2.

Posted July 17th by Fox Forever
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Sorry to hear things are where they are in your life.

May God bless you Weid.

Posted July 17th by chiefsonny
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You are an amazing person Weid_Man. I have always enjoyed reading your opinions in threads and enjoyed hearing about your gaming knowledge.

You are definitely one of the most kindest out of all the people on this website. I would also like to say thank you for the times that you have stuck up for me. And thank you for making this website more of an interesting place.

I hope God helps things for you to work out whether in life or after death. I am not in your shoes so I don't know exactly what it feels like what you're going through but I've had problems in my life before and I can understand things can be hard. Its a shame there are some horrible people in the world that make other people's lives more difficult. But there are many nice people in the world who have empathy, sympathy and are there to try and help make people's lives better.

You have never hurt me before Weid_man. You have always been one of the nice guys. You don't need to feel guilty about anything.

If you live in America, the healthcare system is much better than in the UK (The UK is where I live). Some of the doctors here lack the most basic medical knowledge and give the wrong information.

If God is real then I hope he brings you whatever happiness he can give you weid, whether in life or after death. Every life form is a part of the world and a contribution to God's program.

There are many problems in the world but hopefully we can try and make parts of the world a better place.

I hope you live for as long as you can so I can still see you on this website weid_man. You are a good person and in the afterlife I am sure there are some good things waiting for you. But yes suicide is a sin and people can be punished for it. I hope you live as long as you can for our World.

Posted July 17th by Welsh_Gamer
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All my time on the internet and I've never met anyone else quite like you.

A few years ago when I had a significant health scare I initially responded with fear. I avoided going to the doctor because I was afraid of what the answer might be, up to the possibility of an esophageal tumor. I'd not known what achalasia was, and left untreated I could have aspirated myself into pneumonia or worse while I slept. I frequently thought back to you, and how you faced every surgery with a courage that I was not finding in myself. I eventually went to a specialist, and then took the requisite test (and then another test, and then another test...) to discover the nature of my condition, and that there were solutions that should, with few chances of complication in the years to come, buy me the remainder of my natural life. It cost me three grand and 20 pounds to get to the point when I could eat normally again, but the point is that I found you to be an inspiration, and if I've acquired any wisdom in the three years since I will not forget what I learned from your example.

This thread has the tenor of a farewell, and if that's the case then I wish you the best.

Posted July 17th by Famov
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I know you've been through a lot with everything and your disease is ultimately terminal, it's just a question of when rather than if. That said though, is there nothing more you can do? Maybe you need to find a new doctor (or, well, an additional doctor) who doesn't think your condition is inoperable. Like if it's too risky, well you've already committed yourself to dying anyway, so any chance of survival is better than what you currently have.

If this is a farewell post, then well, it's been a heck of a ride. You'll be missed.

Posted July 17th by Xhin
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Sky's the limit

I'm pretty sure it's not a farewell post. He's just filling us in right now so when the inevitable happens we'll have been prepared for it.

Posted July 17th by Fox Forever
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Stick around for one more football season bro. I smile when you send me a 'Roll Tide' after every Bama victory.

Posted July 18th by Bubba
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I remember talking about e.t and baking mayfield. I’m going to miss you weid. I think your funny and a kind person. I hope people learn from you that they can go on in life and make it as long in life has possible even though it can be painful suicide is not the answer as you said it is one of the worst sins unfortunately and people who commit suicide don’t go to heaven.

Posted July 20th by Brandy
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Weid, you are an inspiration. You're going through more medical hell than almost anyone alive and yet you remain ever positive, ever excited for the next Mario game. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers going forward.

Posted July 20th by Black Yoshi
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Posted July 20th by Laxan
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Thank you everyone. It’s gonna be a tough trial and has been. I’ve been having a hard time communicating with my nurses since I’m deaf and mute and have to use my phone since they don’t know sign language and have gotten into many accidents because of our communication problems. I just hope I die one day in my sleep from the meds I take via medically prescribed and hope that God forgives and saves me from my sins. It’s hard for me to get to sleep even since I’m always in pain and can’t swallow my own saliva.


Brandy I took a gander at one of the posts you made earlier this year https://gtx0.com/read/has-anyone-played-dragon-warrior-7--this-game-is-basically-a-retelling-of-the-book-of-job-and-the-has-many-bib, and want to let you know that I have been in a Christian group chat on Facebook for the past few years now with xhin, Brocken jr, Kern, and doctor doom. If you want to be added to it then please ask xhin to invite you since I don’t have you added on Facebook.

Posted July 20th by Weid man
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Weid man


Thank you everyone. It’s gonna be a tough trial and has been. I’ve been having a hard time communicating with my nurses since I’m deaf and mute and have to use my phone since they don’t know sign language and have gotten into many accidents because of our communication problems. I just hope I die one day in my sleep from the meds I take via medically prescribed and hope that God forgives and saves me from my sins. It’s hard for me to get to sleep even since I’m always in pain and can’t swallow my own saliva.


I just wanted to say that, although I'm new here and don't you except so marginally in passing from posts I've read, I have to say I am impressed by your fortitude in this time of trial! Many would, understandably, complain and rage. You seem to be taking it all with the equanimity of a saint. And I do mean that --- some people have been given the grace to face death not as the end beyond which there is nothing but as the door that opens before us into our true lives.

I will keep you in mind during my (admittedly scattery) prayers. All I can say at this point is call in a priest! You're crying out for forgiveness; why not avail yourself of a man whom God gave the authority to forgive, here and now?

I'm glad you've got good nurses working for you and that you've got the support of a Christian group. I'm sure they're praying for you as well as you endure through. And don't forget: suffering has a purpose, even if it's not obvious to the sufferer and pains those around him to witness. Give the suffering to God. Let him work good with it!

Posted July 21st by elemtilas
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Keeping you in my thoughts Weid.

Posted July 23rd by Shelbai
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Shell + Buy

Thank you two very much! My doctor won’t let me have surgery but I have tumors on the back of my neck tugging me causing major pain so my mom is trying to tell the doctor to do the surgery even if there is risk and besides I hope it will be my final moment in time. Pain medicine isn’t working for me.

Night gazer is married now Shelbie. If you want pics then ask her for it. She told me that she knows they you’re married via Snapchat. Kagome15 forgot who you are. I remember the days of risk/monopoly. Always team up against black mantle/doctor doom. Btw query is now in a relationship but sadly his gf’s parents won’t let him marry her because he is of a differing Christian denomination and query doesn’t mind his gf’s denomination do he’s not the one sinning nor is his gf. I hope you are having a great time with your spouse.



Posted July 23rd by Weid man
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Thank you two very much! My doctor won’t let me have surgery but I have tumors on the back of my neck tugging me causing major pain so my mom is trying to tell the doctor to do the surgery even if there is risk and besides I hope it will be my final moment in time. Pain medicine isn’t working for me.


No worries!

One thing I've learned in my (short!) time here is how wonderful and strong a community this place is. I've not come across many forums where people actually take the time to learn about one another. I just add my tiny & insignificant voice to those of your friends here!

Posted July 24th by elemtilas
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No worries!




One thing I've learned in my (short!) time here is how wonderful and strong a community this place is. I've not come across many forums where people actually take the time to learn about one another. I just add my tiny & insignificant voice to those of your friends here!


Very beautifully said





Posted July 24th by Shelbai
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Shell + Buy

I doubt I’d still be alive if I didn’t find gametalk and wouldn’t have made such wonderful friends online and a place to come to socialize and share video game experiences with. My life would have been so much better if I was allowed to learn my own way AT SCHOOL ONLY and be given a homework pass because social networking and making friends through it is much more important than learning how to read and write and doing any homework at all. In fact the most important part about going to school is to make friends also, learning comes SECOND. I wish my mom wasn’t so religious about education and instead let me be like my friend who is totally addicted to gaming. Unfortunately now I am a vegetable and want to die and blame my past neurosurgeon for denying me chemotherapy when I was 18 just because he thinks I’m too thin. The only real homework that I think the world needs is for healthcare purposes. Making friends on gametalk are much more important than any fork of education and I’m glad I hounded my mom to let me stay home during the summer of 2011 while my family and grandparents went to Switzerland which would have been BORING for me, gametalk is the only real vacation I have ever wanted (including going to night gazer’s wedding and querynonger’s aviation academy).

Posted July 24th by Weid man
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Sorry to hear it, weid. You've brought so much life, character, and love to this place, maybe consistently more than anyone else. You're brave and have been fighting for so long. NF2 is horrible. I admire you.

Posted July 26th by Ophelia
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you weid man

Posted July 26th by poptart!
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Weid man, you are a brave, spirited person and a good friend. You probably don't need me to tell you that I've appreciated our friendship on here, FE, and whatever other platforms were used these past 15 or so years. I wish you the best always

Posted July 26th by Jahoy Hoy
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Thank you very much! Unfortunately I’ve been going through unbearable pain lately and all sorts of other trauma. I am visiting my doctors this week and next and hopefully I can find s way to make it to the other side hoping there is an afterlife. Friends are coming down to visit me ASAP knowing these may be my final days.

Posted July 30th by Weid man
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Thank you very much! Unfortunately I’ve been going through unbearable pain lately and all sorts of other trauma. I am visiting my doctors this week and next and hopefully I can find s way to make it to the other side hoping there is an afterlife. Friends are coming down to visit me ASAP knowing these may be my final days.



Oh, there is. No worries there. Just think kindly of us when you get there!

Am glad your friends are coming down for a visit. Hopefully, they (and us out here!) can draw strength from your strength!




Posted July 30th by elemtilas
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You have endured so much, maybe it is time. Best wishes, weid and thank you for sharing this place, and all of the memories that came with it. Try to remember the good times and the best we've ever had.

Posted July 30th by LLight
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I don't know what to say, Weid Man, other than I wish you as good of a passing as you can get right now. And I hope this life was worth it.

Posted July 31st by mariomguy
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I am very sorry you ended up going through so much suffering and couldn't live a normal life. I hope all the rest of your days are as great and enjoyable or at least as peaceful and painless as possible.

I'm also sorry for not being more active and speaking with you more.

Every life has its eventual end in this first world, whether sooner or later on in time. But I myself also strongly believe that there will be another world beyond this current one where people can get another chance at life and also experience only joy. A world ruled by the Lord of the bible himself. All you have to do is have faith that he will make everything right, and live how he would want you to. There is no sin anyone can commit that he can't forgive as long as you ask.

Thank you for being a part of this website. Thank you for being a part of this world. We all love you, Weid man. May your days be long and happy in the world to come.

Edited July 31st by Danger Mario
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Weid man, you've inspired me when no one else possibly could have.

You've suffered so much, and with such dignity and strength and selflessness. You deserve all the best.

I love you so much. I'm keeping you in my thoughts, always, and wishing you the best I can.

Posted July 31st by Cetasaurus
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Formerly KM8

I'll miss you. I love you.



Posted July 31st by Chain Chomp
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I understand and respect your decision. I'm sorry you have to go through any of this, but I echo the sentiments everyone has shared as well. Keep sending me sports goings-on while you're here!

Posted July 31st by Jet Presto
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I respect your decision. You didn't deserve this, but you sure as hell went through all that shit like a bad

Thanks for all the invites to your home and the times we played on smash!


Edited August 1st by ShadowFox08
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After making us laugh for so many years, I suppose eventually the time had to come where you would make us cry. Love you weid

P.S. thanks for the laughs and uniquely hilarious wordplay. You have seriously livened up the site over the years, and I feel like you’re largely responsible for humanizing this place and making it feel like more of a tight, supportive community - a home of sorts - than an anonymous message board.

Posted August 2nd by pacman
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Thank you very much! Unfortunately I’ve been going through unbearable pain lately and all sorts of other trauma. I am visiting my doctors this week and next and hopefully I can find s way to make it to the other side hoping there is an afterlife. Friends are coming down to visit me ASAP knowing these may be my final days.



Are you still with us?
I’ve been thinking about you.



Posted August 7th by chiarizio
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Weid man is still here but I don't know if he's physically able to communicate via text or not. I'll try contacting him personally.

Posted August 8th by Fox Forever
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Been thinking of you nonstop too, weid.

Thanks Fox. :)

Posted August 8th by Ceta
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Weid man is still here but I don't know if he's physically able to communicate via text or not. I'll try contacting him personally.


Thanks.

Posted August 8th by chiarizio
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@chiarizio I'm sorry but he passed a few hours after I said that, check the memorial thread for him.

Posted August 8th by Fox Forever
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Actually I checked into the time. I sent that message at 6:45 our (weid and my) local time. His mom later stated around 9 that he passed around 7 so there wasn't much time but at the time he was still here. I wish we could've talked one last time.

Posted August 8th by Fox Forever
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