I'm so sad
Posted November 30th
What the fuck is this? I sound like the unabomber.
Posted December 1st
I kinda get it. Shit fucking sucks in so many ways that you can't even begin to describe how you feel fully and why and it just comes out sounding edgy especially with all of the frustration building up. You want everything to work out but it just doesn't and empathy and caring too much can sometimes end up coming out in in edgy sounding ways. And to be honest with you caring too much seems like it can be what leads to some of the evils in the world when people get carried away and get so desperate that they start thinking of the "greater good" but not much else. But don't try to stop caring either that was a mistake I tried to make myself years back. The world needs people who care intensely but you also need to not let it get out of control and look after yourself as well. Relax when you can. I'm not sure what else to say to this specifically but if you want to talk to me my discord and fb messages are open.
Edited December 1st
by Grey Echelon
> We're born fir so much more than competition with one another. I want to die every goddamn day because society feels like somthing against me, something I need to escape to be free, or conform to in order to be worth a damn . Fucj it all. fuck it all.
What's sad is I think almost everyone thinks this way. Everyone who competes with you and scams you is doing it because they feel the same way you do and don't want to get left behind. Maybe they've been there before and know what it's like and now they physically [i]can't[/i] get left behind.
So it's kind of a circular problem -- if someone had reached to them when they needed the help, they wouldn't be competing and scamming people and making the world a worse place. But people didn't reach out because the world [i]is[/i] a rough place and helping people can be a liability (especially if you do it selflessly). So the world is rough because the world is rough because the world is rough...
Yeah we’re way off course.
My mom told me recently that she wanted to get me tested for a social disorder when I was in kindergarten. I’m grateful that it didn’t happen until my final year of high school, when I was already like, “Screw this.” I probably would have internalized everything.
I might have become a fascist lol (marginalized people tend to radicalize one way or the other).
Wait no. Jason was my closest friend like 20 years, so that would never happen.
Hey Xhin– Hey Grey– Do you want to start a commune with me?
Strangely you're not the first person to ask me that exact question.
So can I count you in?
Might as well. (happy)
by Grey Echelon
Great! Who else should we invite?
tnu should be down